Fuck it all!!! I'm going to be candid on this one!!!

Fuck people, and fuck politics!! I am soooo sick of it all. WHy does it happen to me??Is it really my naievity of it all, or what?? I mean... god!! Not even sure if I really want to go into it, but it does hurt that people can be so fucked up and evil and everything. They fuck you round, and try to screw your life up for you, when you have done NOTHING to them!!! I just don't understand it. I thought I'd got rid of the naievity thing, but I guess not. Or maybe when I give people the benefit of the doubt, I give them far too much credit. I don't know what it is, but it always manages to backfire on me.

The latest to have happened to me is that I have supposedly slept with some guy recently (since splitting with MJ, so in the last couple of months), and he gave me an STD or something. Like, yeah, ok. Must have been good, coz I wasn't there!! Hope he enjoyed himself. Must have been a good dream!!

Anyway, apparently all up though I'm meant to have slept with three of the rugby boys, and they were supposedly going into detail of like what they did and everything. Something like that anyways. I just don't get it. I mean there's only 2 guys I've been with since I got here, which is MJ, and a Guy that I'll call the wanker (for lack of anything better). Anyway, the wanker is the only guy I've ever been with that plays footy, and that was AFL, not the team that these 3 are meant to be on.

Anyway, they are the only 2 guys that I've been with, so I'd LOVE to know who it is that seems to think that they have been with me. I want to hurt them so bad. Actually, I don't know any more. I'm kinda torn between hating them, and wanting to tear their heads off, and feeling pity that they are such fucked up deluded characters.

Anyway, I'm kinda sick of getting into it at the moment. I'm just gonna stop.

Going to have little investigations soon. And these people are going to be fucked up by the time I'm done with them. Might even see if I could get them for defamation of character. Whatever, nothing is going to happen quickly it seems.

So anyway, I'm gonna go. Have to eat I suppose.

Peace

Jen